Sunday, September 11, 2016

The art of live alone

Hi my fans who always waiting for me to post a new story of my life!

Many things happen on me.
You know what? Few days ago, I took a decision that really scare me will bring much changes on my life. Yes, promotion at work.
I just think if I get promotion, I should stay longer because I have more responsible with my new role. But, come on! The chance comes only once, not twice! So, why I don't take this good chance and learn how to be more responsible. Some big things always scare you, huh?

Anyway, what I wanna tell you here is......... about 'The art of live alone'.
After many years live alone, eat alone, wake up and quiet, sleep and no one tell you good night, sick and you should survive alone, some pipe broken and you should fix alone and only have phone to connect with your love one. I used to be live alone.

Like last night, I really really feel sick. I'm not a type of person who cancel promise because of my condition. I feel sick since morning, but I have appointment with my friend to have breakfast together, I didn't want to cancel our appointment and I forced myself to go out and make a lil suggestion if it will be alright and I will recover soon after hang out.

But then, the reality is, I feel worse after arrive at my room. I really really need to see the doctor or my usual therapist. My boyfriend can't take me to both because his house is 1 hour distance from my boarding house. So, he said to wait till the next morning, I can't wait, I feel very sick and can't wait. So, what do you think I do? I ride my motorbike and come to see the therapist. My friend just said "If I were you, I gotta wait my boyfie till next morning, I just can't bring motorbike in that condition" and you know what I said? "Sorry, I'm not that kind of woman, I'm used to be live alone, so, I know how to be survive."

Another example, my aircon at boarding house is broken, need a long time for the owner of boarding house to fix it up. I can't sleep without aircon in such a long time. Hot! I went to carrefour and buy a new fan. The storekeeper asked me question, "So, maam, would you like to install all components of fan here? Or you want to do it by yourself at home?" And I answered him, "Hmm, I can install by myself.", He said again, "Really? For sure? You will not call me just want to ask where's the position for one of the component, right?" I answered strickly, "Come on, I can handle this, this is like a piece of cake!" And I  just need 3 minutes to make all components become a real standing-fan! Hah! I told you, mr. storekeeper, I can handle this! #ProudMelisa

So, based on above examples, I wanna said if become independent is fun! You don't rely to someone else. You are free. You are not afraid of being alone because when you alone, you can truly speak to ur inner self. You become fearless. You learn many methods to survive in this world. You will become such a charming girl like me :p Hahaha

Alright girls, come out and see the world, world is not all about love, cry and  prom but world is about free, be you and independent. Make yourself free. While you become independent, you could easily live well, eat well and dress well.

Enough for today! I hope you enjoy this post.
See you!

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

When I miss the old, happy me.

Hi blog, long time no post.

I has been through up and down in this week.
I told my closest friend what happen in my brain, all argue with myself and all blaming session between brain and heart on my mind.

I have a very bad habit, comparing.
Comparing between me and other people which is will be hurt my own self.
Comparing between him and my past which is will be hurt him.
I don't mean to compare him, but I just miss treated like princess.

Call me selfies, but, God, I miss treated like I'm special and his only one.
I miss being number one.
Like the rain said in his song 'Aku cuman rindu, itu saja.'
Yes, because, I just miss him and all his treatment to me, that's it.

I miss my laugh when he is around me.
I miss my old, happy me.

I hope this is just me feeling blue, not my real feeling.

Sincerely,

The not so happy me.

PS: sorry for being so random.

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Being productive and ready to take decision

Hi good people,

This blog will transforms to my electronic diary hahaha
Because every chapter is describe alot about my current feeling.

So far, after 1 year work, I feel not productive -_-
Too much work and forget being productive, such as how many books I already read in one year, for 2016, I made goal for 15 books must be read. But, the reality? one few  books. Shame on you, mel -_-

I still afraid to take a decision, but, now, with small step, I more brave to make one.
I hope this a good decision, for my career or my future. Finger crossed.
I can't tell you what kind of decision, let me tell you later after everything already confirmed.

I will close this small post.
At least, this post is one of my small step to become productive!
:)

Good night!

Saturday, July 16, 2016

Until how long?

Dear good people around the world,

When there is a big opportunity in front of your eyes, would you take that opportunity?
Or you will refuse it and let it go slowly?

I got a very big opportunity in difficult situation.
I just afraid to take it and feeling guilty.
But, someone comes to me and said 'How long you gonna live just to pleased others?'

I did a very deep thinking with myself.
The words are 100% correct!
So far, I live my own with pleased others.
Never thinking about myself first.
Always afraid with what others thinking about me.

The result after deep thinking is I want to live my life without pleased others.
I must put myself as priority in some situation.
Because, in the end, I only have myself to live till the rest of time.
Love yourself first!

Have a great sunday.

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

woman logic

good night, guys!
Actually I have a big task to do this evening.
I need to make a presentation but I stuck on my blog page and thinking to write something in my brain right now.

All women always lie to her friend, family, couple even to herself. We always say 'No' when we want to say 'Yes'. Some men want to approach me and know me better. But, I always make them confuse with my logic. For example,

1. I love surprise. Give me a surprise and you will officially made my day! Don't need a big surprise, you don't need to bring gold or diamond for me, just simply bring a bouquet of flower or chocolate and I will be very happy!

2. I get jealous easily. When you become mine, no one can get into your eyes. I really don't like a man who approach me and at the same time, he also wants to know about my girl friends; i.e : added them on social media. So far, there is a man who try to approach me. When he asked me out, I always have an appointment with my friend. When we get opportunity to go together, we talked a a lot about everything including my friend who always go with me. In the back home, I told him my friend's boarding house, he said "I don't want to know her boarding house, I don't care about her, I just care about you." 100 points for you, man! You know exactly how to make me smile.

3. Hug me when I'm sad. For now, I believe if I am an independent woman who don't need a man. But, there is a point where I can't stand alone and need a shoulder to cry, someone to talk and someone to hug. If you can't give me an advice, simply be quiet and give me a hug. It's more than enough.

4. When I said 'No', please make sure if I really mean it because sometimes, I said 'No' just to see your effort. How far you really love me? If you are a typical 'follower man', I'm so so sorry if I will not really interest in you.

5. Last but no least, love me with your whole heart and I will do the same. I am not typical a girl who will cheated on you. If I really bored with you, I will tell you. If someone attract me, I will ask you to break up rather than cheated on you.

Is it confusing? I think you will said 'yes' hahaha it's okay, sometimes, I don't stick with the logic too. Logic always change based on his personality. Soo, is it the time for me to finding 'jodoh'? Hahaha

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Adult Life

Hi!
Tonight, I want to write a post about adult life.
Day by day, I realized if adult life means forget about all your dreams and accept reality.
Hard to believe, but that's the fact :)

While in college, I have bunch of dreams. I want to get scholarship abroad, have my own company, travelling with own money and marry a man who I love after finish enjoy single life.
In reality, I must satisfied and grateful with my current condition; I just too lazy to looking for scholarship opportunity and accept work chance in Bali. Day by day, I really enjoy with work life and forget about scholarship abroad. I wanna have my own company but too bad, I am afraid to open my own business. All started from many questions in my brain; "How if the business isn't success?"; "How if I take the wrong step with leaving my current job and start my business?"; and all those questions make me afraid to open my own business. I also want to travelling with my own money; in reality is I can't take my day off or annual leave whenever I want. I don't have time to enjoy my holiday. Also, I can't wait too long to looking for a man who serious with me. I'm not young anymore, I become older day by day. So, this is time to looking for someone who really serious to become my future.

Aaah, all dreams from my college life must be replace with reality. I agree with one of quote from Kurt Cobain (If I'm not wrong) ; Nobody die virgin, because life always fuck us.
Well said! Hahaha

But, I really grateful with my current condition because I know, God give something that I need, not I want. So, I believe with His plan on my life.
I want to make a plan and let God do the rest. Plan will starts with simple action, for example : my plans till the next 2 weeks are focus to stay away from negativity (always start your day with positivity), eat less meat (in order to become Vegetarian). stop using rude words when angry with someone, don't be too addictive with social media and watch my sleep time (in order to get much sleep)

Good night all. Don't forget to always grateful and put God first. Follow your plan and God will help you to achieve them.

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Thing I hate the most.

Hi, good people!
Good evening from Bali.
Today is my day off and I have a very un-productive day.
All I did this whole day only sleep and eat and repeat hahaha
By the way, this post wants to discuss about something that I don't like :

You chat someone, they don't reply or read but they appear in other social media.


It happens! It really happens! Someone could be annoying like that.
Could you imagine if you are in the sender position who waiting desperately to get reply urgently but they post something in other social media like your chat is lost in black hole.
I know we can't push someone to be like us. I always hold  my phone, this because I live far away from my family and always keep contact with them, even in Line message or phone call. If my family called me and I am not pick up, they must be think I'm in dangerous situation (HAHA! my mom always thinks like this, come on mom, I'm 23 this year!). Everyone isn't same like me, they probably don't with their phone every time or maybe, they are not phone addicted like people this recent day.
BUT....

Please! If' you are not phone addicted or typical of people who don't hold their phone every single time, don't ignore someone's message and having fun in other social media. At least, why you don't read that message? Leave them a clue if you already read the message.

So, I made decision. If someone ignores my message and they appear in other social media, the message in their chat application will be the last message that I ever send to them. If you make me feel unimportant, I could be like you. Remember, I'm not the girl who hold revenge, I just want make you feel like you do to me. Fair enough? :p

The conclusion is treat people like you want they treat you. As simple as that.
Good night and see you :)

xoxo,

Melisawu

Friday, May 27, 2016

AADC 2

Halo semuanya. Postingan kali ini mau pakai bahasa Indonesia aja ya :p
Jadi, postingan kali ini mau mengisahkan mengenai kisah cinta dari perspektif seorang Melisa haha

Postingan ini terinspirasi dari film AADC 2. Awal launching, gue gak mau banget nonton film ini, karena emang dari awal, gw bukan pengikut Love Story-nya Rangga - Cinta malah gue pengikut Love Story-nya Edward - Bella haha
Sudah hampir sebulan film ini nangkring di bioskop, keluarnya barengan Civil War, tapi sampe Civil War sendiri aja sudah dicopot, film ini masih setia nangkring di bioskop. Luar biasa!
Suatu malam, dapat Line message dari salah satu teman terkece yang ngajakin nonton film ini karena doi dapet tiket nontonnya gratis. Siapa yang bisa nolak kalo ada embel-embel gratisnya?
Jadilah kami janjian untuk nonton di Rabu malam.

Awal-awal nonton AADC 2, mulai deh roaming, gue ga tau siapa itu Milly, siapa itu Aliya, yang gue tau, Rangga pergi ninggalin Cinta ke New York di AADC 1. That's it. Setelah 15 menit pertama, akhirnya gue bisa nangkep jalan ceritanya. Semua berjalan oke, gue suka alurnya, gue suka karakter Cinta, gue suka karakter Karmen, gue suka lokasi syuting mereka (especially Jogja!) daaaaan gue suka Rangga disini. Bukan, bukan karena Rangga yang pergi tiba-tiba kembali, tapi gue merasa, setiap insan, pernah menjadi Rangga atau pernah memiliki seorang Rangga di kehidupan mereka. Orang yang tiba-tiba pergi tanpa alasan dan selalu kalian rindukan walau kalian tahu, orang itu sudah menyakiti kalian, walau kalian tahu, ada ratusan orang yang menawari kasih sayang melebihi si Rangga, tapi tetap, si Rangga selalu mempunyai tempat spesial di hati kalian.

Sebenernya sempet sebel si sama Cinta, secara, dia udah punya Trian and almost married with that lovely man tapi dia malah galau dengan perasaannya sendiri setelah ketemu lagi sama Rangga. Dan yang parahnya, setelah menghabiskan semalaman sama Rangga, 9 tahun penantian dia setelah ditinggal Rangga dianggap apa coba? 9 tahun sakit hati lewat dengan ngobrol semaleman doang gitu? Ya namanya film, kalo dikehidupan nyata, kayaknya kecil kemungkinan deh si Rangga akan selamat melewati malam dengan wanita yang ditinggalkan begitu aja setelah 9 tahun. Disini, gue kasian sama Trian, dia orang baru di kehidupan Cinta, dia yang menawarkan kisah cinta baru ke Cinta setelah terpuruk dari Rangga, tapi apa? kisah cinta itu sia-sia karena Rangga muncul.

Jika boleh membandingkan kisah di film itu dengan kehidupan nyata, gue pernah punya Rangga. 2011. Di jogja. Tapi, bedanya, mereka terpisah jarak kalo di film, kalo gue? hard to describe. Ada banyak Trian juga yang menawarkan diri untuk menggantikan dia. Tapi, jahatnya gue, gue selalu membandingkan keduanya dan yah... kalian akan tahu jawabannya, Rangga tetap jadi pemenangnya. Sebrengsek apapun dia, sejahat apapun dia, sekampret apapun dia, dia punya sesuatu yang bisa bikin kita tersenyum miris karena terkoyak oleh kenangan masa lalu yang harusnya ga boleh diinget lagi. Terus, gimana cara gue survive dari bayang bayang Rangga? Just believe, kalo emang gue jodoh sama dia, ga akan kemana :) Tapi kayaknya emang ga jodoh, wong dia nya udh kemana-mana hahaha

Oke, sekian postingan baper kali ini. Thanks AADC 2, you success made me baper a whole week dan terima kasih sudah mengingatkan jika kita pernah punya Rangga ataupun menjadi Rangga dalam kehidupan ini.

Salam baper! :'

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Living in Bali, Living in Heaven on Earth

Hi good people.
Long time no post.
Always hesitate to write a new post (Typical of Libra, always hesitate).

Next month, I will celebrate 1 year work in Bali.
If I can turn back to May 2015, when the first time I started to work, everything seems so scary to try.
When in college, everyone said I'm smart, cool etc but reality said the opposite (At least, that's what I think when first day in work).
Like someone who lost a way, I start my work with don't know what to do and don't know how to response everyone.
Really struggle everyday.
Living alone without any friends or relatives make me know if being strong is the only way to survive.

And now, I can said to you guys, Melisa is change to strong version of herself. Many things happen in one year, such as knowing if my friend isn't really my friend, back-stabber is everywhere, something sweet to say in front of me can be bitter behind you, my dad was sick, break up with my boyfriend, got new crush but his behavior just make me upset, etc. With all those things, Melisa is upgrade herself to strong version. A version that never care about others think about her. A version who always smile even though she wants to cry loud! I'm so proud of myself.

This time, she just wants to make sure if every goals that she made in the first of 2016 will be achieved and she can be better from day to day.

There is one quote that always on my mind "You don't how to be strong until being strong is the only way you can do." That's happen to me!

Talking about my work-life, Thank God I work in Bali! Whenever stress comes around, just go to nearest beach, listen to the sound of wave, put my feet on white sand and the sun kisses my skin, all of those things are the effective stress killer. More effective than shopping!
I really don't want to leave Bali but I should. I must looking for another place to get new experience.
But this Heaven on Earth will be the best work place in my work experience.
Like this post's title, I want to say, living in Bali like living in Heaven on Earth.

See you on the next post! Keep strong good people because problems always come and go whenever they want!


MelisaWu

Saturday, February 27, 2016

Enjoy Bali

Hola!

As I told u before, now I'm working in Bali, a beautiful island.
I plan to work here till December 2016 and before it, I want to enjoy it to the fullest like explore all the places on my bucket list.

Staying 1 night in Ubud is one of my bucket list.
I stayed 1 night with Metta and we choose Deta Junjungan Villa.

This villa is very perfect for you to run away from crowded Kuta and the service is so perfect. They give you a free shuttle 24 hours to Ubud central. They have spacious bedroom and amazing pool.
Fyi, their bedroom is so suitable for honeymoon couple with bathub and frangipani everywhere. First time step our feet inside, we look like 'what are we doing here?' LOL. 2 friends spending a night in a romantic bedroom hahahaha

We spend time in Ubud Central to walk and enjoy the Ubud atmosphere. Another amazing thing is we walked for more 6000 steps! Hahaha

In the night we ordered pizza bagus via gojek app and watching HBO till sleepy. Ubud is soooo cold in the night. I love it.

On top of that, I can reach my one of bucketlist and I still have many plan on bucketlist. Metta will be go home and I dont have any friend to explore another part of Bali.
Sooo, would you be my travel mate until the end of 2016? ;)