When I miss the old, happy me.

Hi blog, long time no post.

I has been through up and down in this week.
I told my closest friend what happen in my brain, all argue with myself and all blaming session between brain and heart on my mind.

I have a very bad habit, comparing.
Comparing between me and other people which is will be hurt my own self.
Comparing between him and my past which is will be hurt him.
I don't mean to compare him, but I just miss treated like princess.

Call me selfies, but, God, I miss treated like I'm special and his only one.
I miss being number one.
Like the rain said in his song 'Aku cuman rindu, itu saja.'
Yes, because, I just miss him and all his treatment to me, that's it.

I miss my laugh when he is around me.
I miss my old, happy me.

I hope this is just me feeling blue, not my real feeling.

Sincerely,

The not so happy me.

PS: sorry for being so random.